This too, goes with the wind...

I can't believe half the year is already behind us. This year has been one of those seasons of cleansing and band-aid yanking, so to speak. I've see the real friends, the foes, the ones who only came around when they needed me, the ones who despite the distance have always been there for me, and those who pretend to be something they are not (only because they finally have the attention and praise they eagerly seek).

I've had my share of ups and very low downs, but I loathe sharing details of personal struggles and I'm baffled when I see how easy it is for some people to be blunt and spill the beans like it's no big deal. I'm often judged by others for my lack of sharing, I believe it's called personal life for a reason. The constant negativity, venting, over sharing their needs (in a direct or indirect way) just makes me keep my distance from them.
The couple of times this year I desperately needed someone trust-worthy to talk to, I was immediately faced with judgement; I was ready to call someone one day and really open up, then when I saw this person I was faced by  'hey I'm too busy and annoyed at the world to talk' attitude. After that, came the time when I was face to face to someone I thought I could trust, and within a few minutes of chat I realized this person wasn't interested in hearing me at all, rather I found myself being Psychoanalyzed and everything I said was being scrutinized, so Yuyis did what Yuyis does, kept it to herself and stayed friendly and polite.

Have you ever found yourself in those shoes? If so, I applaud you for moving on and keeping your private life, private :) sometimes opening up is not the best option, particularly when God has given you the strength to get up and move on when everyone else seems to have forgotten about your feelings. See, I've learned that for many people, the more they know, the more they forget and the more they disconnect. You need to trust ONE, only ONE, my trust is with God. I need to share nothing with no one, to feel empowered, understood, content, blessed, and grateful.

Those who claim to care about you, will show it with actions; those who God has placed in your path for a lifetime, will come through when you need them (no need to say a word), and those who care about their own benefit more than those they claim to care about..... well, those people will show their true colors in due time.

In a nutshell, be cautious of whom you share your personal details with, empowerment doesn't come from others, it comes from within. Your strength and courage don't depend on others, it depends on how you are willing to treat yourself and how fast you are willing to step into your role.

Rant over..... looking forward to this half of the year, always my favorite!!!